The Way It Used To Be…

New blood joins this earth
and quikly he’s subdued
through constant pain disgrace
the young boy learns their rules

with time the child draws in
this whipping boy done wrong
deprived of all his thoughts
the young man struggles on and on he’s known
a vow unto his own
that never from this day
his will they’ll take away

they dedicate their lives
to running all of his
he tries to please them all
this bitter man he is
throughout his life the same
he’s battled constantly
this fight he cannot win
a tired man they see no longer cares
the old man then prepares
to die regretfully
that old man here is me

what I’ve felt
what I’ve known
never shined through in what I’ve shown
never be
never see
won’t see what might have been
so I dub thee unforgiven

Prison gates won’t open up for me
On these hands and knees I’m crawlin’
Oh, I reach for you
Well I’m terrified of these four walls
These iron bars can’t hold my soul in
All I need is you
Come please I’m callin’

Heaven’s gates won’t open up for me
With these broken wings I’m fallin’
And all I see is you
These city walls ain’t got no love for me
I’m on the ledge of the eighteenth story
And oh I scream for you
Come please I’m callin’
And all I need from you
Hurry I’m fallin’,

Show me what it’s like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I’ll show you what I can be
Say it for me
Say it to me
And I’ll leave this life behind me
Say it if it’s worth saving me

Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red
And what the hell is on Joey’s head

And this is where I grew up
I think the present owner fixed it up
I never knew we’d ever went without
The second floor is hard for sneaking out

And this is where I went to school
Most of the time had better things to do
Criminal record says I broke in twice
I must have done it half a dozen times

I wonder if It’s too late
Should i go back and try to graduate
Life’s better now then it was back then
If I was them I wouldn’t let me in

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It’s hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Remember the old arcade
Blew every dollar that we ever made
The cops hated us hangin’ out
They say somebody went and burned it down

We used to listen to the radio
And sing along with every song we know
We said someday we’d find out how it feels
To sing to more than just the steering wheel

Kim’s the first girl I kissed
I was so nervous that I nearly missed
She’s had a couple of kids since then
I haven’t seen her since god knows when

I miss that town
I miss the faces
You can’t erase
You can’t replace it
I miss it now
I can’t believe it

So hard to stay
Too hard to leave it

If I could I relive those days
I know the one thing that would never change

Pwede bang sabihin mo
Na itatago mo ang mga sulat ko
Kasi medyo maiinis ako
Kung itatapon mo..

‘Wag kang mag-alala..
Di ako luluha
Kung may kapiling kang iba
Di na pipilitin pa..
Itong damdamin ko sa’yo
Medyo maninibago
Pero ayos lang sakin ‘to

At pwede bang sabihin mong..
"Maghihintay ako sa’yo.."
Kasi medyo naiinip na ‘ko
Sa ikot ng mundo

Pwede bang isipin mo
Nahihirapan din naman ako
Sa paghintay lang ng kung anu-ano
Magmumula sa’yo

At ‘wag kang magtataka
Kung ako’y biglang makita
Na nag-iisa..nakahiga lang sa kama
Iniisip ko ito,

"Ba’t nga ba biglang nagbago?.."

Makayanan ko sana ‘to..

I want to live forever
Inside the nights and days.
Wishing on a silver cloud,
Crawling across the moonbeams.
A summer night in heaven
Between the stars and waves.
Race across the old bonfire;
Trample on my heartbeat.

I love you with a fire,
Ablazing till times end
But what good is a heart
When it shudders to speak.
I guess it’s too late now.

I wanted to turn you on
My favorite song.
Wanted to be near you
But somebody owns you now.
I tried to live somehow
Somebody owns you now…

Bumaba ako sa jeepney
Kung saan tayo’y dating magkatabi
Magkahalik ang pisngi nating dalwa
            

Panyo mo sa aking bulsa
Ang amoy mo’y naroon pa rin
Tawa nati’y humahalay
Sa init nating dalawa

Subalit ngayo’y wala na
Ikaw ay lumayo na

Kulay nang iyong ngiti
Tikwas ng iyong buhok
At ang lambot ng iyong labi

Kahit anino mo sa malayo
Ay nais masulyapan
Upang mapawi
Ang lamig
            

Subalit ngayo’y wala na
Ikaw ay lumayo na

             
Naaalala ko ang mga gabing

nakahiga sa ilalim ng kalawakan
Naaalala ko ang mga gabing

magkatabi sa ulan

San ko hahanapin ang ating nakaraan?
ala-alang kay tamis at kay saya
ang aking puso’y umaasa …
nananabik sa’yo
di mapigil ang damdaming …
nababaliw sa’yo …

Maghihintay ako …
patawad, di ko maikukubli …
di inaasahang mayro’ng katapusan
sana’y iningatan ang pagkakataon
na noo’y tayo lamang
at ang bawat sandali ay
atin lamang … ito’y alay ko sa’yo

Di makapaniwalang …tapos na
ang lahat sa atin,
at di ka na … magiging akin
kahit na … andito pa rin ako …
Umaasa …

Aaminin ko,
lahat ng ito,
ay inaalay … lamang sa iyo
aaminin ko,
na ang buhay ko,
ay walang kulay kung di dahil sa ‘yo
aaminin ko,
tanging ngalan mo,
ang sinisigaw ng damdamin ko …

It’s been quite a while…

I can say I miss your stories.

I miss you and I miss us.

But what I really miss is not you and not us,

but how we were before.

Mahirap umasa sa wala.

Mahirap magmahal sa taong may mahal na iba.

Mahirap ipagtanggol ang taong walang pakialam sa nararamdaman mo.

Higit sa lahat mahirap masaktan kung wala namang karapatan.